Time Flies When You’re…What am I doing?

Today marks one month (ONE MONTH!) since I released Mexicancer. I am extremely proud of where this book journey has taken me so far. I’ve met amazing people and have gotten the most amazing response to my story.

Part of me thinks “Wow, I should’ve released this ages ago! What was I waiting for?” But I know the response to the book wouldn’t have been the same back then. I believe timing is everything. Things do not come to those who wait. Things come to those who work hard and cry about not having enough money to buy mascara….(Wait, what?)

You see, the day Mexicancer was released, this is how much I was worth:

I couldn’t even afford to BUY MY OWN BOOK the day I released it. I meant what I said: Remission is NOT the start of some fabulous new life. Yes, the gratitude is there and will always be there. What people don’t see, is the countless bills patients still have to pay YEARS after they’ve finished treatment. I’m constantly trying to make up for all the time I’ve lost. The fear of being left behind consumes me everyday. Having to adapt to the changes in the job industry, all while trying to prove my disability won’t be a factor….well, it’s exhausting. Sometimes people like me have to stay home and cry over being unemployed and poor.

I cried the day I released Mexicancer. Partly because I couldn’t read what you guys were reading. (I only had the PROOF copy; the one that is sent to the author for review prior to release.) But I was mostly in tears over how it was just all unfolding in front of me – all the while not even having enough dough to buy…well, anything.

The very next day after the release, I got hired at my current job. I’m not rich. Not even close. But I can now ask for an extra shot of espresso in my Latte without having to write it down on a post-it later as a reminder.

Again, timing is everything. Sometimes someone or something higher than you decides when YOUR time is right.

Happy one month anniversary, my little book. I love you.